i.
Heaven is not a place for
wanderers, witch-talkers,
women with words
between our teeth--
we purveyors of sinister
magic, we perpetrators
of wicked misdeeds.
we who are muck and mire
and marrow,
stuck hollow to the soil beneath
our feet--
we whose blood bubbles thick,
arcane, and dark.
we with candlewick tongues.
we with cauldron hearts.
ii.
ours are the whispers
that seethe in the streets;
ours are the fires
and the sinkings of stones;
ours the desires
that brew and that breed;
ours the rebellions,
ours what we've sown.
ours are the murmurs
that churn in the dark;
ours the disquiet
and ours the alarms;
ours the awakenings
in glyph
At least tomorrow, if not today. by ohsparrowsong, literature
Literature
At least tomorrow, if not today.
and i remember the day i knew you were going to try and change him.
i knew you couldnt, and i think you knew that too, but your heart was so full of love and regret and i think if you didnt at least try it
would have left your entire body shaking for the rest of your days.
you were in the shower, and i could hear you rehearsing.
i couldnt hear the word, i could just hear you swearing and mumbling and banging your fists against the bathroom tiles.
i couldnt hear your words, but you sounded brave.
you sounded determined and i wish i had half the guts you had.
and i know now that you were too late.
and i know that the vision is etched into you
drug it out
kicking,
screaming,
sedated
faded from years
of use
you are a martyr
in bold chartreuse
and not aged
one bit
zeroed and won
over those that gawked
you are no mint,
you're a hawk
but tonight
you are primed
to fall
and the weight of the world
finds your shoulders
too small
to shatter
o, pity those
whose burdens see fit
to leave matters
alone,
you wept
When I was little, my aunt dreamed of daughters.
On the weekends, she would take me,
my dimples and my temper, show me flowers
blooming in her garden: the ground moist,
yellow pansies and sweet peas taller
than my four feet.
I collected garden toads, plucked one from the soil
then another, and she let me place them
in the old tub downstairs, its white walls inescapable.
I laid there quietly,
their little legs finning the water,
the press of ripples pruning my skin.
I was an empress in new clothes. All my subjects
loved me.
i.
You left a graveyard
Between my thighs.
ii.
You touched me, scorched me,
Left me hollow on these
Hallowed grounds.
iii.
All the whiskey in the world
Couldn't erase the bruises
From my neck or the hurricanes
In my chest and
iv.
I will never forgive you.
another word for longing by learningtobefree, literature
Literature
another word for longing
climbing a mountain is just an excuse for blistered feet.
you emerged more beautiful than even my mother
and here,
i look for your lips against a bedsheet. yes,
against a bedsheet.
i come home to the version of you
doused in oil and rosey carnation petals.
you swallow the version of me
royal blue and too soft, swollen.
i don’t particularly know
the shape of your laugh anymore but amidst the debris,
i found your face. i say,
that has to count for something more than blood.
is your skin weathered, sunken into the skull?
Mommy is short and thick with wide hips and a wider bosom, complemented by the way her hair cascades over her shoulders and frames her chest with dark curls both slick and wild. She has child eyes—because she is scarcely a grown-up, but I have yet to learn that—and laughs a lot, easy and loud. When I'm sad, she hugs me close and tells me that life isn't always fair but pain is important. She tells me when I'm angry to think with my head first but always trust my feelings. And most importantly, she wakes me up every morning with breakfast and tummy tickles.
In August, the trees are gold, and she paints them on her big canvases tha